Lala

I just finished playing a 3 hour scrabble game with a friend which he won by one point *tear*. Damn, time flies when you’re having fun I guess… if you could call online scrabble fun. It was more like – painful.

I remember my friend once asking me what I found to be a turn-off, and I would have to say when it would be if a guy doesn’t see me as an equal. I would want my boyfriend to see me as an equal in every way, a worthy rival in school, life, everything. Even if we don’t match up equally on everything, I would want him to understand that he may be better than me in some things, but I am better in other things too. It made me so angry when my ex-bf said he thought he was smarter than me. Granted, I did ask him who he thought was smarter, and it was a stupid question, but his answer was more than stupid. Anyway, I dumped his sorry ass later. But yea, an answer like that showed me that he’s a dumb ass fucking idiot.

I love rambling, but I am about to go stuff my face at a Chinese buffet, so toodles….. to my one reader, or many random readers… or probably just… reader.

I’ve slept for over … 14 hours. Must be up there in the most hours slept ever list. But I do know some guy who had slept for 20 hours last week. I can’t even possibly imagine sleeping for that long.

I had a dream though, actually a lot- to fill the 14 hours of sleep. But my dream was of me thinking back on my childhood at the duck pond and I was there with Akiko. I always complain about how I can’t remember things from when I was younger but me in my dream could remember it pretty vividly, the memory was even tinged with a little bit of sepia, lol you know how they do it when they want to show age.  So we were just running around the duck pond, and akiko’s aunt informed me that the reason that akiko didn’t have an american name was because of me. I have no idea how that made sense while I was sleeping but for it made me upset because the aunt told it to me with the intent to make me upset.

Anywhoos, I’m done with one more final, and now have one left to go. When I was studying for my final yesterday, I really wanted to post something here and I probably would have written a lot too but since I had done enough procrastinating, I didn’t. I bet that post would have been pretty good though. Whenever I have something like studying to do, I always want to do something else and that feeling is really strong. I think thats why I either get incredibly tired, or I really want to post on this blog. And that feeling of wanting to post here probably would have made it a good one because I’m sure there was something that I did want to talk about.

I love how I’m rambling in here. And goddamn! I’m hungry… seeing that I haven’t eaten in 14 hours because I did eat right before I went to bed… bad Elissa!

I have a test in 23 hours, yet I’m writing here again. Its for Law and Justice and it covers everything after the midterm which I was not there for because I didn’t go to any classes after that midterm…
ah, such is the life of me.
My friend thinks that blogging created emo. I think technology created emo. We’re so out of touch with real human interactions and emotions that I guess some people can’t help but become depressed, hence “emo.” I like how we have to figure out sarcasm, detect lies, and the emotions on someones face over just mere text that appears in front of our computer or cellphone screens. Oh but how could I forget, we also have smileys and emoticons. ;-P
It’s kind of pathetic but last week my phone died while I was at school and I just felt so disconnected that I really wanted to go home and charge it. And usually when I’m home, I am almost always online and always near my phone. The thing is, I already tend to be a loner and if I am not connected somehow, I feel extremely lonely. I love being at home but the internet sucks which makes me feel disconnected even though I have my phone. Its not like anyone calls me or IMs me, but the thought that someone might want to, and I’m not available to recieve it bothers me. Like if I leave my phone at home, I’ll use up expensive gas to go home and get it or check my voicemail constantly with other people’s phones. I think the best way to make me to not feel lonely when I’m stationary is for my internet and cellphone working, and when I’m mobile, for my phone to be working… and I guess the company of another human being could be nice too. lol…. I think I’m kinda emo-ish.

Anyhoos, I’m making vanilla haagen dazs soup. yummeh!